I don't want businesses, I want my Fren Back!!

Money is Not the Root of Evil, Poverty is the Root of Evil...

I have done the biggest mistake in my entire life.... I shouldn't do partnership in any kind of businesses with my best fren!!! It is not the 1st time i did that.... This incident keep rotate in my entire life...

3 years ago...
Miss A- my super best fren since primary school. We decided to sell the beauty products. Normal i will get the clients for her and she will get the products and pass it me. On that time we work very hard actually make lots of money...we actually make almost RM 1k profit at 1st month ( as student-side income consider a lot). So we con't work hard, save money and decide to open a beauty salooon in future. But this incident happen to me at the following month... we get the news about the increase price of beauty products. On that time, the top sales product is Peeling gel- RM 245. So we decided to come out with our money to buy lots of stock to keep it for future purposes. From here, we might earn more. As student i face difficulty to come out with the huge amount of money. So i decided using all the tuition fees money from ptptn to buy the product. I gave RM 3k for my " best" fren. Guess wat?? something unexpected actualy happen to me?? She "best fren" actually take the money and dissappear??? The worse part of all, i already order the products from supplier. My life suddenly become terrible. i Don dare to let anyone know, my supplier n classmate n customers chasing me for money n products, MMU is chasing me for tuition fees...n account left only left 2 digit number. It is just like at the end of the day... I was so sad... i don know wat to do... i dare not to tell anyone... frighten, scare, horrible, sadness was surrounding my life... i wash my face with tears every time. I hate myself so stupid because dont know how to slove the problem. finally i make up my mind... i change all my foreign currency and bluf my parent and request tuition fees from them. I'm consider quite lucky, i manage to cancel the order from supplyer and only need to pay 20% of compensation and settle all my debt, i didn look for my "best" fren and i don know where is she at that very hour! I didnt blame her, i blame myself being stupid to do partnership with my "best" fren. Just a lesson.

After 3 yrs...
Recently, i saw her in JB Jaya Jusco... she is pregnant now. I was dumbfounded on that time, im chill i smile on her and she trying to avoid me. I didnt plan to get back the money from her...i wish her all the best to her...

Now...
after the incident, the level of my self-conciousness is getting higher... i accidentally missunderstand my another "best" fren.... it is jus like the end of the world... this kinda similar feeling again.... My best fren demand for some kind of product so i search for him n order quite a number of products for him. But when need to give the comfirmation n money to the supplier, again my "best" fren ignore me. He just like dissappear!! I thought something similar happen to me again.....I thought he ignore me and wanna leave me alone... i did call him one time n sms him a few times and he didnt reply.... So we quarrel and he decided to not be my fren any more. It is just like the lightning suddenly shoot into my heart. Again~~ i lost my "best" fren...i wash my face with tears... i don know how to face the suppier? and i need to come out all my saving to buy all the products... the problem is i dont have enuf money to do make the purchase.

and...

i cry not because of the money,
i cry cause im sad...
i cry cause i lost a fren,
i cry cause he scold me...
i cry cause he bring me into such condition again...
i cry cause he only think for his side...
i cry cause he didnt keep his promise...(maybe he dont even promise me)
i cry cause he just leave me like that...
i cry cause he dont wanna fren me...
i cry cause a lot n a lot...

on that time, i going crazy, i don know how to do, i got no ways dy... i almost graduate, i cannot bluff my parent for tuition fees again, i got no way to go... I scare be at home, i scare my suplier suddently come to my house n chase for the money...

finaly...

after 2 days... he reply... he wouldnt know anything about that. This is just misunderstanding... i got to know he is not available for a few days... he is busying for his MBA. I don't know wat happen to digi.... he told me he don even receive my call n sms... he thought i scold him like unreasonable.... he thought i didnt think on his condition... he tought i didnt appreciate our frenship... he decided to give me go into the terrible trouble. We cannot blame anyone, i blame myself cause im too hot temper, i didnt control my temper... i like to assume people understand the situation... kind of pity me, he helps me sell the products without any commission. Eventhough he helps me... but we cant get close as previous anymore... a crack will always there... He will not forgive me...because he didnt know the whole picture...

Regret...

I regret.... i regret to search for the "Lobang". Money is not the root of Evil, Poverty is the root of Evil. Poverty can actually bring lots of problem... if i got money on that time, i will not blame n scold my fren...

J... I'm Sorry :'( i dont to wat to say, i didn request u forgive me, i know it is very hard, pls don't forgive me, it is sad cause cant be ur fren anymore...Take care... all the Best to you... Best wishes will always be with You...